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I took Eli, to his one year check up today!  He weighted 21.6 pounds.  When I first had him he was 8 pounds 10 ounces. I was asked by the nurse if I felt time had gone by quickly.  That’s an understatement!  It seriously feels like I just had him yesterday, where has the time gone?  He walks and babbles, and crawls, he tries to run, he eats finger food, drinks from a sippy cup, climbs up the stairs, pulls my pots and pans out of the kitchen cabinets, giggles and squeals, and smiles a lot!  Where has my little baby gone?

Now that I’m a Mom, I understand so much more, or should I say I see things in a different light than I did before we had Eli.  It’s almost as a veil has been lifted from my eyes.  I no longer see little children in the same light.  In the past when I would hear about bad things happening to little children or babies, I would feel sad for them and bad, but now that I have Elijah, any time I hear something bad happening to a child or baby, even in movies, it makes my heart sink, there is a physical reaction that goes through my body, that I didn’t feel or have before.

Sometimes I think of Eli growing up, moving out, getting married, and starting a family of his own.  I makes my heart hurt, not just a little, but a lot.  I then think of having another baby and wonder to myself, who would want to put themselves through that more than once?  Thinking of my babies moving out and going into the great big world, terrifies me, ( because all I want to do for Eli, is protect him) and then I think I just gotta have faith that I can teach them what they need to know, and be there for them when they fall.

That thought alone….I just gotta have faith, opens up a whole other chapter in being a Mom.  Having faith.  Faith that you have taught your children well, so they will be good people and know how to choose the right.  Faith that when you put them on the bus, they will make it to school and home okay.  Faith that when a friend of theirs tries to get them to do something they shouldn’t, they will know how to make the right decision.  Faith, that when they make mistakes, that they will come to you and ask for help.  Faith that they will learn and hold onto your testimony of Jesus Christ and develop a testimony of their own.

Being a Mom, has helped me realize, that I have a lot to learn about faith!

There is nothing sweeter than the love my son gives me.  There is nothing sweeter than a little boy coming and hugging my legs or smiling at me.

‎”Time is never for sale; time is a commodity that cannot, try as you may, be bought at any store for any price.” -Ian S. Ardern

So very, very true!  I have loved every minute of being a Mom.  I can say it’s hardest when you’re tired but I love it.  I’d have to say other than seeing Eli, smile and hearing him giggle, my favorite times are in the middle of the night when he’d wake up crying.  Although tired, I loved giving him a bottle, and just cuddling and holding him in my arms, hearing him take little breaths in and out, in such a quiet, soft smooth rhythm.

I can’t imagine my life without him.  He brings us so much joy!  Andy loves it when Eli comes running up to him with his hands stretched out, a huge smile on his face and hugs Andy’s legs.  I love it when I run after him and he squeals and laughs and when I tickle him.  It just makes you feel good inside.

There is no greater gift than being a Mom…..Thank You Eli, for being such a BIG and IMPORTANT part of our Family!

I look forward to all you have to teach me!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!  Mama LOVES YOU!!!

What’s your fondest memory of your baby or being a Mom?